Monday, 10th August 2009.
My AS results came out.
i was super nervous.
what should i expect?
i've been sleeping in class and i've been busy with Student's Representative Council and also in The Islamic Students Tie.
lecturers might expect my results to fall. well, even i thought so!
i still remember, that time i atlked to kak farah.
i told her how i felt i never faced any challenges in life.
how my life ahs always been easy flowing.
i got 5A in UPSR, 8A1B in PMR and 10A1B in SPM.
i was thinking, is this what people call istidraj?
(good things Allah gives as a challenge to see whether we are thankful)
it's like, i'm the type who need not struggle much, i study last minute, and still score.
i was starting to feel worried. what if i felt too comfortable that i end up leaving all on fate/luck?
since i joined the Islamic Students Tie, i've been quite busy with da'wah etc.
(though i know i've not done enough for the comunity).
still, all these works did take my time.
i only hold onto one line: Allah helps those who help His religion.
i believe that i am helping Islam, and i beleived deeply taht Allah is and will help me.
i kept praying that Allah makes it easy for me regarding life related things cause i want to work for Islam.
as i went to take my results...
my heart beats faster and faster.
my classmates said to me: aishah, congrats!
i went blur....
as i had a look, alhamdulillah! i got 15 points!
i didn't want 'me being busy with da'wah' became the reason for me to not score.
or to be as a blame that people will put on.
i still remember what abah texted me before the exam:
"don't let the extra things that you do
become a hindrace for you to succeed academically.
show people that you can suceed in both!
love, abah"
thank you allah, abah, mak, kak yam, and all!
